Monday, November 28, 2005
with LOVE ;Charles*
hey baby!!
jus wana let you know how much i miss you...
thanks for braving it out with mi thru thick and thin thru the first year!
baby i love you k? and i pray we'll have many more years to come.... -hugz
hope to see ya soon =D
love you!
11:08 PM
with LOVE ;Charles*
hey baby!!! 3days ago was our ONE YR anniversary!
heh, 1stly thx for coming down all the way..
2ndly,thx for the wondeful comic u did 4me!
i cant keep my hands off it =)
but sigh, for got to bring back hall T_T
i love u baby...
n i hope tis flame nv dies =)
8:55 PM
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
with LOVE ;Charles*
no prob dear... i'll do anyth to keep us tgt... and i'm sure you're doing wat you can too... i love you k? and thks for coming down today dear -hugz- =)
12:40 AM
Monday, November 14, 2005
with LOVE ;Charles*
hey baby
thx for cmg dwn today =)
i wanted to del the prev entry
but sab say 4wat?
blog is meant to rec wat ure feelin at the pt of time
so darlin i jus wana say tt i tke back wat i said k?
dear,reali v vtouched u came dwn all the way 4me
made me feel so useless..
while u tink of mtds to bring us tgt
i tink of easier ways
i feel so shitty..
i feel lyk cartmen in southpark..
dear thx for evth...
i love u =)
7:15 PM
with LOVE ;Charles*
u spoke in ur sms, hw i shld stop running away
i noe all tis,do u tink i duno its wrong to run away?
tt tings wun get any better if i do nth abt it?
i noe all tt...
but whenever i mke a mess,all i noe is run..
i dun dare to stay n fix the mess cux it alw gt messier..
im nt wishin for smth gd to spring outa nowhere
im jus findin other tings tt'd mke me 4gt tis mess n mke me smile..
tts wat i meant..
i'd turn to ath,anybody tt wld mke me 4get..
frenx,games..ath..
we cant be perfect..
if i dino it b4,i noe it nw..
our differences are too big..
our tinkgs r so diff, our ways of dealin wif probs..
n the worst part is u dun like my mtd
n neither do i accept urs..
our chars are so freakin diff,our family values n concept..
tis aint the 1st time we quarrelled abt tis..
it has alw bn the biggest fight everytym..
n each time we say we'd change n c hw it goes,
the prob alw returns whether or not i tried to tok abt it..
THIS is our biggest prob..
n no matter how hard i tried,we cant seem to get ovr it..
it wasnt tt evtym we tok,smth bad happen..
it was tt evtym we tok abt TIS,smth bad happens..
tis blog i created to fill our happy memories..
n the 1st mega conversation we have on it is a big fight
evth i do or say always end up being smth bad,smth wrong
n i duno y..
is lovin someone tt hard?
i guess it is...
i reali wanted to ask for a time out..
but i jus duno how to say it all..
i noe i myt regret it..but im in such pain n sorrow u noe
haix i duno wat to do...
im sry
2:16 AM
Sunday, November 13, 2005
dear ah.. i always used to believe that if we wanted to last, we HAD to talk our problems out and make ourselves understood at some point of our relationship... we can't always expect to spend hepi days with each other... but i don't believe that anymore.. because everytym we talked someth bad would happen... so i'll rather not talk.. not jus because you din understand.. but more because we'll both get hurt in the end... so there's no point... there's oni a point in talking if we end up growing... but i dun feel we are.. instead we'll both end up slashing each other till we end in tears or anger... mayb if we close our eyes and smile, mayb these problems won't even come at all... mayb you've been right all these while... i'm sry.. i decided from today that i CAN take it if i'm not understood.. don't wry abt mi... i choose not to feel trapped anymore.. sorry is such a easy and a hard word at that same time... it is easy when you want to comfort someone... but its hard wen the other person loses faith in the word sry... and you're left with nothing you can say anymore... with LOVE ;Charles*
i used to wry alot abt how are we going to last if this goes on... i've tried it my way but failed... i'm helpless. if you know a beta way, please tell mi... i want us to last... i reali want to..
all i can do is hope and pray that'll we'll find a way somehow...
i hope you understand all these that i've just typed, if not jus let mi know so at least i know whether you get wat i mean...
baby i love you... if sry isn't a word we can use then i don't know wat else to say...
jus know that i still love you loads k dear?
in the dark wen we can't see... we'll jus have to hold hands and keep walking till we reach the light... ya sounds mushy and lame lol wateva... i jus hope it means sth to u...
i love you baby.
7:19 AM
with LOVE ;Charles*
well 1st, read the name of the blog..
2nd, brk up did cross my mind,u were right
i cldn help wonderin if it was a mistake ryt frm the start
nt cux uve bn givin me nth but hurt
but bcux ive bn gvg u nth but hurt..
and i obviously dun understd u,no matter hw hard i tried to fake that i do
i will hold on..cux ad infinitum wasnt jus ur drm,it was mine too
but i duno how long i can last
there is a limit to evth..
but if we ever did brk up, jus noe it aint ur fault..
its not fair to say i nv hurt u b4..
im sure i did loads..
wif my incapability to face prob as bravely as u
wif my failure to tryna solve problems
wif my born character of bein a runner...
but im also tired of gettin hurt and then hearin sry
im sick of hurtin u le n then sayin sry
but i guess the former ticks me off more..
i hate the wrd sry,n hw often its bn used in our rlnship
i love u, tt is without doubt..
but how long can it last us?
how long can love fuel our rlnship n prevent it frm bcumin stagnant?
smtimes, lettin the other one go is a form of love..
cux it sets that person free...
n prevents the other frm gettin hurt anymore..
smtimes,ppl leave bcux they love the other half so much..
ironic isnt it?
i noe how saddenin it can be when ur other half dun understand a single wrd ure sayin
hw trapped one can feel...
i noe hw u feel now, not knowin who can understd u..
im sry i dun understd u..
i duno wat else to say
im not sayg or suggestin brk up now..
i hope tings aint tt bad yet..
but im jus tryin to tell u that..
if we ever did, it mite not bcux i stopped lovin u..
take care......
6:49 AM
Saturday, November 12, 2005
well baby, somehow i dun quite know wat to say le... with LOVE ;Charles*
all i can say is please hold on, i don't know for sure how many times break up has crossed your mind today le... but all i know is that i can't live my life without you...
i won't promise you anyth... lest you get disappointed...
if u took all those words away, took away all the fancy romantic poems and songs, and i am left jus as i am...
all that i'll say from the bottom of my heart is...
-i love you too much to let you go, and i'm sry for all the pain that i've caused... will you forgive mi? i won't talk abt such things again..-
will you please tell me that you still have enough strength to carry on? i wouldn't know wat i'd do if you told mi otherwise..
all i can do is pray i'm not too late. all the best for monday's and wednesday's paper... baby i love you ya? tts all i know for sure...
tc dear
-hugz and kisses-
2:45 PM
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
with LOVE ;Charles*
hey ma love!!! lolx
i was lookin at da pic whereby u acted lyk a hamster
gosh baby,ure so cute lolx =)
n dearie,dun have to thk me for bday!
im jus glad enuf u like it =)
i'd do ath for u baby =)
heh woa lucky nobody got access to our blog..
or they'd complain we too mushy!!
bahahha
haix havin headache now baby
jus now i tot of wat to type in the blog!
but now i forgot n it hurts to tink haix
im jus lookin forward to end of exam
den can see piggy more! heh
piggy i love you =)
7:14 AM
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
baby baby baby!!!! haha this is my first post hee! sry i took so long baby, have been feeling a lil too down to blog [properly but i'm reali alryt le, tks to you dear dear! =) miss you miss you miss you!! bahaha wen can we meet again darling?? =) tmrw tmrw yay! haha.. hope you get to read this blog wen you go back to sch tmrw! ha... and good luck for bio chem k? you can do it dear dear, jiayou jiayou! -jumps around in a mini skirt and waves poms poms- haha but well.. tks so much for the bday celebration and all the 9 surprises!! it was so sweet of you.. haven't got to thank you officially, on the blog, so here it is! haha... everyth was so nice! and now that the goblet has all the saga seeds, the gifts are officially complete yay!! -jumps around- well excpet for the blog... cos i don't know how to update the thingy at the side! (the one where i'm supposed to write wat i like and dislike etc...) but well baby... all i can say is.. you reali reali rock ya? to be preparing all these stuff even in the midst of your exam prep... no one else could b so thotful my dear =) and tks for coming to my performance! i was so very touched wen you suddenly showed up! it was reali a surprise, and i was so glad to see you =))) i saw the vid of myself and i was like ":bahaha... i look like a weirdo on stage!" next time you gota help mi k? like say if i'm "rehearsing" in front of you, u can help pt out to mi stuff i shudn't do! hahaha lolx =P baby baby, i reali miss you too... i jus hope you jiayou in the midst of this exams and keep it up darling! i'll be cheering for you all the way -hugz and this wed!! heheheh =))) can't wait darling! oki darling, i've finished ranting! baby i love you =) charles with LOVE ;Charles*
5:48 PM
Friday, November 04, 2005
with LOVE ;Charles*
lolx i miz ma pig!
amidst all the muggin
i miz ma pig n ma frenx the most
haix..i hate sch!!
n i sure hope piggy had a great bday celebration! heh =)
i love u!!!
12:20 AM
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